In Good Company?

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Accession No: TWCMS : 2009.72
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This story is about Michael's journey through life, his art and a commentary of bi-polarity.

By Michael Brown

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S T I G M A      !!!!!

For as long as i can remember its been 'different'

RAGE is all i feel, GREY is all i see,

i was born into the wrong life,

when i was a child- colours were so vivid so powerful,

people were MONSTERS

school was lost on me i couldn't understand numbers

i could draw and paint things people couldn't visualise

i felt things much deeper than other people

thought things other people didn't think

thoughts, images, ideas, came so fast i couldn't focus

like a radio endlessley tuning in and out of stations

endless energy, endless accidents, endless fights and confrontation



but there was drawing

smells, sound, hurt my head light was too bright

pains in my head

massive highs terrible lows

months at a time of non-functioning behaviour losing friends

being bullied    pointed at. school absence teachers not understanding

BEATINGS.... anxious mother angry father sadness heartbroken alone

colours,shades, tones so bright, faces so bright, distortion

shapes floating and moving in the darkness...

can't trust anyone

punching walls-causing trouble

GOING MAD-LOSING MY MIND......... broken marriage- homelessness

anger - rage- frustration

illness-loss-no friends

outcast from family - illness



BIRTH OF SON........ painting, tutoring, selling, the golden jubilee award working in the community support from my employer... running my studio reaching out from the dark









SO I'M TOLD..........

Wow. Powerful story.Posted on 02/10/2009 at 10:10:08

thank you.....so so very much...Posted on 03/10/2009 at 08:12:19

Inspiring.Posted on 12/10/2009 at 12:42:08

An unbelievably honest account of the problems you faced, but ultimately inspiring and uplifting. StevePosted on 21/10/2009 at 12:10:16

The images you use are really powerful, I watched this with some students and I think it really gave them food for thought.Posted on 29/10/2009 at 06:59:52

thank you.....a lot of the imagery is my own work......Posted on 29/10/2009 at 10:35:25

ur video was absolutely amazing, it made us think widely of how people see the world when they have mental health issues, from Emma, Megan and KellyPosted on 06/11/2009 at 09:24:30

thank you..................................................Posted on 08/11/2009 at 05:55:41

thankyou your work is brill and it made me think of thing's that i do to release my anger & thought's on the canvas it get me to smile again . sharonPosted on 24/11/2009 at 04:20:31

honesty and pain........the art is real........ truth...................................Posted on 26/11/2009 at 06:52:12

You really have searched your sole! A lot of hard work has gone into creating your story. Scary, but very honest. Well done! HeatherPosted on 08/12/2009 at 10:28:10

An extraordinary privilege to get a glimpse into your life; brave isn't a big enough word to describe your journey; The other characters you mention are the ones lucky to be in your company. Hope the rest of the journey goes well.Posted on 18/12/2009 at 09:42:54

Thank you for sharing this with me today Posted on 19/12/2009 at 08:49:26

thank you all so so much for all the positive comments it was really hard for me to do this and i thought i would get a pretty negative response ! I'm really surprised by the wonderful replies...Posted on 27/12/2009 at 02:40:23

omg........................ heart -rending............................ where were the teachers..............? doctors.........? ......................................................................Posted on 05/02/2010 at 09:43:51

ta!Posted on 27/02/2010 at 12:19:06

!!!!! ;-{ )Posted on 11/03/2010 at 05:47:00

(0_o)Posted on 20/03/2010 at 01:48:36

Have you ever exhibited your art in the North East? Or have you put any online?I'd love to see it.Posted on 08/04/2010 at 12:22:39

yes ! I've had a lot of local exhibitions and auctions I've had a website in the past but is now sadly defunct my most recent small exhibition was at La Boca in Princess Sq earlier this year and some of my work can be seen in the land of green ginger at Tynemouth. I hope to have a web prescence shortly and will post info here? Thank you.Posted on 09/04/2010 at 08:34:51

//0_0\\ t h a n k y o u Posted on 18/04/2010 at 09:52:14

we love you micke beePosted on 20/05/2010 at 08:33:55

There is so much to think about during this commentary one has to replay this to get over the initial shock of the first hearing then you hear more each time you listen to this brave account.Posted on 15/06/2010 at 10:04:33

why?Posted on 27/06/2010 at 10:11:44

checkout www.puddytigger.com i think i've got some work on there....Posted on 04/07/2010 at 03:05:46

thank you so very much. I thought your film really captured the complex and sometimes very disturbing nature of bi-polarity. I will definitely be sharing it with my family and friends as I think it expresses perfectly the world in which we live. You have helped others more than you realise and I am grateful for through your film I will be able to give the people in my world the opportunity for some insight. :)Posted on 08/07/2010 at 11:26:01

thank you.Posted on 20/07/2010 at 10:50:46

It's a shame you don't command the same earnings as Mr Fry....... Posted on 17/09/2010 at 01:03:26

so sorry to hear all of this ......but the art is stunning and it all packs a real punch....I've had to listen several times to get it all you really are helping people more than you know i hope you carry on the battle.....................................well done!Posted on 05/10/2010 at 11:03:24

in response to lots of requests website is now live ! www.painaffects.co.uk please take a look...... m!ckPosted on 18/11/2010 at 11:44:21

how embarrassing ! that should read........... www.paintaffects.co.uk oops!Posted on 28/11/2010 at 06:09:14

i cannot believe nearly 4000 people have now seen this short flim wot i madePosted on 01/04/2011 at 02:53:17

I know - you should be really proud of your story. It's amazing.Posted on 06/04/2011 at 13:44:00

coming soon my new website www.redpoppyart.co.ukPosted on 27/06/2011 at 09:44:53

thats it its live type www.redpoppyart.co.uk into your address bar now !Posted on 03/07/2011 at 20:13:38

www.redpoppyart.co.uk Posted on 21/07/2011 at 08:30:48

Action rqeuries knowledge, and now I can act!Posted on 04/10/2011 at 05:01:25

That's the best aneswr of all time! JMHOPosted on 05/10/2011 at 09:44:23

I'm not eialsy impressed. . . but that's impressing me! :)Posted on 07/10/2011 at 05:35:22

5000 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! flip!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Posted on 06/11/2011 at 19:34:59

now selling through the north east art collective Posted on 29/02/2012 at 21:08:09

You're a real deep tinehkr. Thanks for sharing. Posted on 29/03/2012 at 11:55:16

Calling all cars, clalnig all cars, we're ready to make a deal.Posted on 29/03/2012 at 05:28:51

Thanks for being a part of Southern Bride and Groom this year Craig! You are well-represented in this magazine suacebe you provided us with such beautiful images to work with. Most of these images are photos that are from real weddings that Craig shot. Any bride would be lucky to have Luster Studios to document their special day! :)Posted on 30/03/2012 at 04:55:57

hmmmmm? Posted on 30/03/2012 at 16:23:56

I can't hear anything over the sound of how aswemoe this article is.Posted on 01/04/2012 at 01:02:58

Good to see a talnet at work. I can't match that.Posted on 01/04/2012 at 01:31:04

thats nearly 6000 views !!!!!! Posted on 22/07/2012 at 10:59:26

genome468 on January 14, 2011 i checked out your site. not bad. its done prttey much like craigslist so i enjoyed the familiarity. A question tho. how long has the site been up? This can grow to be a big thing just like craigslist.. good luck to yaPosted on 04/10/2012 at 11:37:07

i see the un-medicated are at it againPosted on 07/10/2012 at 12:58:29

why not? you can re-post my blog as your wish, just put my name and link attached would be fine. My blog is using cviatere commons copy right, you can check the details on the right side bar at the bottom.You are welcome!Posted on 16/03/2013 at 04:36:51

wtf?Posted on 25/03/2013 at 11:46:28

www.redpoppyart.co.ukPosted on 30/10/2013 at 19:20:48

hey mr tag heuer you are a cock Posted on 04/02/2014 at 16:46:15

over 7500 thousand views when I began this process I never believed it would reach this many people? please keep viewing and most importantly helping those around you with similar issues you can never know what the person next to you is really going through thank you all for the kind comments and support........Posted on 01/05/2014 at 09:38:42

It's a selfless act to open your heart with something like this. Certainly helps others to understand or at least see more clearly.Posted on 15/01/2015 at 10:27:56

Thanks for sharing your experience Mick, I love the vivid images from your artwork and the terse prose. A very powerful insight into challenges and joys of your life. Warmest, regards, Jonathan.Posted on 06/07/2015 at 13:16:02

Powerful stuff Mick - you never can tell with this "living' stuff - twists and turns, light and dark - all so wonderfully out of our control. Sounds like some of your journey has been a rough ride, but once you've turned that corner......... Relax, sit back, and enjoy the next bit, you appear, to me at least, through your posts and artwork, to have found 'you' - now learn to live with that, it looks good, and just 'be' ! JxPosted on 06/07/2015 at 15:09:51

Wow 9500 views well done xPosted on 02/10/2016 at 12:33:22

Wow 10.000 and going strong thank you!Posted on 27/04/2017 at 17:38:51

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