I strongly remember the next Paris Hilton staring at me. And that's no compliment. All of
the original's flaws (particularly her airheaded-ness) had been amplified and evoked in
one eleven-year-old girl.
Around 2007, I wore a 'skort' to school. And this girl asked me if I was Goth because
said skort was black. I explained I wasn't...but later that night I was pondering the issue.
If I became Goth, I'd probably get to play the 'scene' card. But at the same time I would
expect to get bullied even more than I currently did.
I don't know if I told anyone I'd made my mind up, but the next weekend, I began
building a hugely wrong and stereotypical wardrobe...and a similarly describable album
collection. I was probably too young at the time to understand the meaning of a proper
Goth song... so instead I listened to angst-filled pop-rock, all about break-ups and
explanations of why the artist is totally original. Of course, at the time, I didn't know that
these were just lies written by an employee at a record company to rein in all the
Then in 2008 I was accepted into a private school, which I only really considered
because it looked like Hogwarts. I had been listening to something a little closer to the
real thing: Gothic metal. But all of my classmates were listening to repetitive dance-
pop, and the faux-punk I was originally a fan of! I think they only liked me because I
agreed with them all the time. Within my head, I was arguing with their ideas and
theories all of the time.
But after a small accident involving a couple of sadist teachers and a fractured arm, I
left. I had had enough. They'd been extremely inconsiderate all term, and the accident
was the first thing to push me to tell my parents about my problems at the school...And
it led to me being home-schooled.
I got a laptop for my birthday that year. My parents had been promising me one for
ages, and they wouldn't have been able to afford it if I was going to remain at Miniluv
(which has become my pet name for that school). All I ever used to do was visit
Youtube and listen to music on it. That's when I discovered the real Goth music.
But I wasn't happy. You see I had no idea Goth music could be equally good and bad.
This was nowhere near what I was looking for. In ten dark electronic and Gothic Rock
artists, I only really felt moved by three or four.
But one of the artists I found and enjoyed was the dark cabaret extraordinaire Emilie
Autumn. And there was a track of hers which had been remixed by some form of
electronic band: Angelspit. At first I was just wanting to see more of the bizarre
costumes they wore, but I was surprised to find their music was actually very, very
good. Apparently this was 'industrial'. And I began adding more 'industrial' albums to my
collection. Since I still liked -some- Goth and some industrial, from then on I just
considered myself an industrial Goth.
The concept I follow today is that there are two forms of industrial: There was the
original industrial: which was people messing around with synths and hitting pieces of
metal with other pieces of metal. This was largely inhabited by bands from the
seventies. But then in the eighties, 'post-industrial' was born. It followed more of the
rules of music than their predecessors, but still kept the chaotic, dark and experimental
By now the genre is huge. There must be over fifty different kinds of industrial, all based
on the two main forms of their parent genre. Even I am creating my own idea of
industrial music. I have found music that I could really have a passion for and it's all
because of a seemingly trivial diversion made by one rather irritating airhead.