Video transcript
Its such a rush, a real escape,
Its so intense most cant relate,
The feelings are gone, my head is so clear,
Its just a shame it gets worse from here.
The first cut was the hardest, the rest follow with ease,
I feel like it helps me with some stress release.
But after its gone and the wounds start to heal,
I feel all alone and no longer real.
I feel it might be easier to cut too deep,
Or maybe go peacefully some day in my sleep.
Pills wont solve nothing, sometimes they don’t work.
If I tried and I failed I would feel even worse.
It starting to scare me, these thoughts are so real.
I think its my fault that my wounds won’t heal.
I try and I try to escape all these thoughts,
Its really hard not knowing how to talk.
Maybe if I found someone I could talk to,
Maybe I could cope with this scary ordeal.
It’s a big vicious circle going round in my head,
I did find some help, but now the lines dead.
I don’t have the strength to shout out anymore,
So this time I curl myself up on the floor.
However it seems my thoughts were delusions,
As I turn away from these silly confusions.
I found someone to help me through,
little did I realise this person could banish my thoughts make it all go away.
Make it much easier to calm down and stay.
Here on this earth with my family and friends,
fortunately for me I have not come to my end.
But its easy for some with the same thoughts and feelings,
To just give in when life has no meaning.
But if you hang on and take comfort it others,
You’ll find it much easier to clean out those cupboards.
Filled with the pictures of those horrid thoughts,
You can confide in each other and just abort.
The feelings, the rush, the abstract desire,
For here is your hero, someone you admire.
They will help you and heal you, and make you feel right,
They will teach you how you can win the fight.
I still have the memories, the scars aswell,
They remind me how I’ve done, I’m doing so well.
Im glad I found someone to help me through it,
I hope you take note of my words and don’t do it.
i am very proud of u kelly well done love u always babe love maz xxxxxxxxxxx yr bigger sisPosted on 17/12/2009 at 04:00:11
well done, powerful story and very well written. I hope everything works out for you.Posted on 17/12/2009 at 04:35:12
Congratulations on creating such a brave story. I'm amazed by the honesty of the stories on this site.Posted on 17/12/2009 at 06:23:07
Thanks for the nice comments people, I had great Fun Creating this digital Story, and i just hope that some day it will help some one that was in the same situation as me Kelly xxPosted on 18/12/2009 at 12:01:28
did you write this poem specifically for your story?? very moving.Posted on 18/12/2009 at 09:48:10
yes the Poem wa made for the cultureshock programme, but its also about my personal expierences wtih self harm, and how i coped with everyday life, I also hope this poem will help others Kelly xPosted on 18/12/2009 at 12:21:50
kelly darling im so proud of you love you always your mam xxxxxx Posted on 18/12/2009 at 12:24:52
totallyy fab kelly :) xPosted on 18/12/2009 at 06:15:01
gret moving story. a chapter of many chapters.Posted on 10/02/2010 at 12:19:41
well done smell, this is the first time i heard any thing about this i wish i had the courage like you have. love ya lots your big bro paulPosted on 11/06/2010 at 01:16:54
Just what the dctoor ordered, thankity you!Posted on 19/09/2011 at 05:14:41
I thuhogt I'd have to read a book for a discovery like this!Posted on 20/09/2011 at 09:57:15
Your story was really informaitve, thanks!Posted on 22/09/2011 at 06:36:06
Hot damn, looknig pretty useful buddy.Posted on 22/09/2011 at 09:38:12