It's not like I don't pay attention. I just do it in a different way.
This isn't a bad thing, but people don't understand and try to point me in a different
way of dealing with things.
Without digging in too deep with my life I’ll just say my mental health affects the way
Things don't really happen unless I do it or listen to it and it's not because I’m not
paying attention and don't listen to you. I am, really. Just because my hair covers
my eyes it doesn't mean I’m not here. Still here. I can see but choose not to. A lot of
this comes from longing to be perfect, and from being bullied.
My advice to you would be continue to be who you are and act the same way you
always do because if you start to change small things like your behaviour you
change the person you are and to be honest acting the way you do makes you feel
more confident to continue with what your goals are. In the end, life with your eyes
covered is much better than seeing life with them wide open, it makes people
stereotypical and judgemental. Try life with your eyes covered and you might one
day understand what it's like to be struck down with mental health issues.
Until my actions are complete I will hide behind my music in my headphones, the
hair that covers my face, the dye that covers my mood swings and the accessories
that cover the mess.